Friday was an odd day. I'd finished the first draft of WIP3 the night before and I remember telling a few of you that I was feeling many things... excited, euphoric, exhausted, a little nauseous.
No worries! Knock out a few paying gigs and rest. Right?
Wow. Then out of nowhere Dream-come-true Agency replies that they liked BNN and would I please make a million changes? And if I did, they'd be happy to look at it again.
Can I just say, that's such a surreal place to be.
On the one hand, they're basically saying what you sent wasn't so great. But on the other hand, it's a bit like a sneaky vote of confidence... the whole "we think you just might be able to pull it off anyway."
I totally had a moment.
Suddenly it was all very real... and naturally, I went under the desk. Did that just happen? And can I pull this off? Me? Some little no-name girl from south Louisiana who likes to daydream? (I mean, that's who I am in my head, right?)
In other news, I agreed to be the photographer for our local magazine (in which I'm traditionally a writer) and take some shots at the Bon Jovi concert. They were here as a part of those free "Concerts for the Coast" to attract tourists back to the beach.
You see, the oil spill did more than damage the Gulf. It almost finished off what the recession started in the economy of south Baldwin County. Many more people lost their jobs, one local fisherman took his life...
While I was there, I looked at these guys who've been entertaining crowds of 30K+ off and on since they were in their 20s and I wondered what kind of surreal moments they had.
At one point in the night, I looked down at the cuff of my jeans and I noticed it was filled with the soft white sand this place is famous for. As I looked at it, I remembered a time in my life when I thought the greatest thing in the world would be to live at the beach.
That made me smile. And right then I wished I could push all 35K of those nice people away and just sit down and stare out at the water for a while. That always helps me put things in perspective.
Big thanks to my bleeps and crit partners I leaned on Friday. I hope you know you can always lean right back if you need to. Looks like I've got some work to do. Til Thursday~ <3